Ben decided to go see Rudy to see if he could help him out with his drinking, and get him off of the sauce for good. When he arrived, Rudy was still sleeping and Ben woke him up. After telling him to leave, Ben refused, needing to know why he insists on drinking and won't let Ben help him. Rudy then begins to tell Ben about his past. Rudy was molested as a young kid and it really got to him. He began to have fantasies about young boys and didn't know what to do. He then turned to God for help and became a priest. For awhile it helped, but then he ended up molesting a young kid who was very gullable and vulnerable. Rudy kept telling him it was ok and that this was helping him, and the kid didn't think much of it. Rudy realized he was out of control, but it was too late. The young kid killed himself later that year, and Rudy couldn't live with it. He then realized that the only way he could control his urges was by drinking. That's why he became an alcoholic and didn't want to stop. This shocked Ben to no end, and he didn't know what to say. He left, but went back the next day. When he went back he told Rudy that he was going to help him in any way he could because he knows he's not a bad guy and his heart is in the right place. Later that week however, Rudy killed himself. He left a note for Ben, knowing he would be the one to find him, that explained everything.
Ben's disease started to progress some as he was coming closer to the close of the year. He decided that it was time to start telling people. He began with coach, knowing that he could be trusted and wouldn't tell anybody. He then went and told Dallas. Dallas couldn't believe it, and asked what she could do, but also couldn't believe that Ben hadn't told her and she told him to leave. Ben knew it was selfish of him, but also knew he had his reasons. He then told his brother, Cody. After telling him, Cody just wanted to do whatever Ben wanted him too. He took it pretty well, but couldn't believe Ben hadn't told him either. Ben then went and told his parents. His Dad was shocked, but his mom just layed there still. He knew it hit her though, because tears ran down her face and onto the pillow. After that, a few weeks later, Ben his whole class in a heated arguement with one of his teachers. His teacher argued that Ben didn't have enough experience to know about Malcom X and all of his history, but Ben then blurted out that he's not going to have that experience, knowing that this was the right time to tell everyone.
The next day, he came to school and Sooner had died. He had been in a car accident the night before. Seeing everyone grieving, Ben and Cody had to leave. They couldn't handle thinking about Ben's death. After that, Ben went to Sooner's dad's house and asked if he could tell Sooner anything after he was up there. All his dad said was "tell him I'm sorry for breaking his collarbone." Then Ben left.
A week later, Ben's disease had gotten so bad that he could hardly get out of bed. Dallas then stopped by and they told each other they were sorry for being selfish. Dallas then laid down by Ben and he stated, "this is way better than any sex i could ever have."
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